Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Note from a friend

A friend of mine (Mac Robinson), who I've known for over 15 years sent me this wonderful note. The note is so touching and honest. It's amazing how many of our friends have shared their stories, thoughts and experiences with us along this journey. Each email, phone call, card, etc. have meant so much to us and really helped us to grasp (as much as we can at this point) the magnitude of what we are on the cusp of experiencing. Thanks for the wonderful note Mac!

Here's the note Mac sent (BTW, not a typo...Mac and many of my friends from Virginia call me Victro!):

Well Victro you are on the cusp of the most amazing event you will ever to be lucky enough to witness and be a part of. I never realized how miniscule the crap in my life was until Zac came into the world, screaming, crying and peeing all over the doctors as Al Green played in the background ("its 3 o' clock in the morning...well...."). They wiped him off and weighed him. He got his shots and he was screaming and I finally stopped jumping around and went close to his ear and said, "it’s ok buddy, we are gonna take care of you." He stopped crying and looked through the goop they put in his eyes and stared at me for a moment and then went back to screaming and peeing. It was in that moment of him staring at me that I realized my life as I knew it was over and I had bigger things to do. It was exhilarating and frightening all at the same time. Then they handed him to me and I just about lost my legs. Such a feeling that this little helpless child was now in my care. I took him to see his Mom, he was crying again but as soon as she spoke he got quiet and looked, then closed his eyes and slept. He was at peace. I sat there with him in my arms and Z stroking his forehead and had a feeling of what idiots we were to think we could do this, but mostly I really truly felt love for the first time. It was such a relief and so free and so unconditional. This was all reinforced when Max came, as he was attempting to literally leap into the world and was screaming as Al Green played in the background (eerie but true). I am very happy that soon you too will get the opportunity to feel it. It is like nothing you have ever had and even if you have another, you will never have it again. I call it "the reason." That is the reason for love, hate, protection, art, science, religion, war, freedom, passion, excellence, whatever...everything. I love ya buddy. Enjoy.
Your friend always, Mac

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